Mother and Daughter's Love Story

“A mother’s love to her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity.”

-Agatha Christie

Being a woman is an advantage, maybe. But being a mother is the best thing I could ever be.

 I am 24 years old and a mother of one pretty three year old girl. Some of you might say that I gave birth in an early age. Some of you might insult me in your own secret way. By any chance, I would like to tell you my own story with me being pregnant with no particular plan. Then with this, it’s all up to you, how you will deliver your own respected opinion. It doesn’t matter.

I finished my studies holding a bachelor’s degree in Nursing. I am a registered nurse, active member of Red Cross Philippines, proud to be one of the PNA’s  (Philippines nursing association), got a job a month after the board exam, then resigned, then finally landed on a job from one of the biggest pharmaceutical back home. To summarize it all, I accomplished my entire task as a daughter before becoming a mother.

I have been to a long relationship, where you may all think, that I am crazy on just sticking into one and not to roam the whole country for another. Yes, once, I loved the father of my daughter. He has been what I dreamt of having for my whole lifetime on earth. But then, nothing is permanent. Nothing will ever last

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Summer of 2010, when I’ve found out that I am pregnant. I am not really aware of it. We are both not yet ready of having a child. But to remove all of your wrong speculations, a day after we found out that I have a life inside my tummy, we announced it to both parties. My parents wanted me to get married, SOON. His parents, were also into this arrangement. But for me, life is too short to make another mistake. I am not really sure if I want to have the rest of my life with him anymore. So we followed what I want, not to get married and wait for the perfect time.

Then,  on December 2010, I gave birth to a beautiful angel sent from above. We named her VERNICE ISABEL LI FERNANDO. Bouncing baby girl. Mind you all, we both had a difficult time when I am delivering her. My life was on 50/50 and so was she. I stayed in the ICU for 2 days. And my precious angel for 7 days. But we made it! Through the Highest name Of God above. WE MADE IT!

Now, she’s already three years old. Like any other child, all she knows now is to play and play and play…

It is the unconditional love that a mother feels for her children that drives these feelings. It is hard to describe the feeling that a mom has towards her children. Most people don’t understand this LOVE unless they are mothers themselves.

So this is Goodbye???

I never thought I would be writing you this letter. There was a time when I thought our love would stand the test of time and nothing could come between us. Unfortunately, for this short time, the way things are now, we are no longer a positive influence in each other's life. We just make each other miserable instead of happy, and make life harder rather than easier. It is time to call it quits and go our separate ways.

I want you to know that I am not blaming you. I think we have both done everything we could and pursued every option available to try to keep this relationship together, but nothing has helped.

How many times have we said we have had enough and never wanted to see each other again, only to kiss and make up, then try again?

Well, someone has to be the one to say enough is enough and I am doing it now. This time I am not coming back.

I believe that parting now is the best thing for both of us. We still have our careers we can concentrate on and we both have our own families.

I realized all of this last night. When I have read all of the things that I shouldn't have seen in the first place. Yes, I am the one who is looking for something to ruin what we have. But yet I am also the one who's always looking for something for us to hold on to.

Everything inside of me keeps on asking why did I make this decision. Why did I want my life to be complicated as it is not before? 

Simply because this place, this LOVE, has once been my HEAVEN and forever be my HELL.

We still have happy memories from the past. We need to concentrate on making the present as happy as possible and try to keep a positive outlook on the future. I think a year from now we will both be doing so much better than we'll probably wonder why we hadn't ended the relationship sooner.

I want you to know I wish you all the best. You have a lot of great qualities that will serve you well in the future. Let's try to remember the good times, let go of our present miseries, and have the common sense to move on.

We loved each other well--for a time. A small part of my heart will always remember that love and remember happy times we had together, for there were many, yet for a short time.

------- YOU WILL BE MY FOREVER GREAT LOVE, MY FOREVER MISTAKE, MY FOREVER POGING LAMEG-----